The Heart says it all...

I am like quite mixed on emotions right now.Depressed yet thoughtful, calm yet cold... is something wrong with me, probably the answer is YES.

Like any other normal person I go through a dozen of  feelings in one single day but at times one feeling over shadow the other.I like being happy but then is it not a choice as I can't put my inner emotions on display.I am actually wondering how people deal with all these inner demons.At times I wonder that one should feel weak too, playing strong hurts at one point of time.

Life differs for everyone..various shades, so many goof ups oops I mean relationships, so many responsibilities, our own ever changing  nature, the cope up mechanisms, high own achievement list n bla bla.Satisfaction is no where.You know what after talking to a number of people, I concluded that each one of us want to run away from life due to any reason or because of any ongoing situation.The mere thought of being into trauma give goose bumps and when we actually land into it - we just want to hide.

The worst part comes in dealing with breakups.It's not like a counselling session but people tend to change for their worst/best at handling these. I am amazed how a person becomes the core of our happiness, the world go gaga with their mere presence, the very thought of losing them bring tears in eyes.Are not we born at different place,cross path with this someone special and then there is this click... not sure how it happens..chemical glitch or whatever but this single person at times torn us into pieces.The self esteem , that boost of confidence - they can take all away.No matter how world accepts you but their rejection makes you feel unworthy of life itself.

We sink into sadistic mode, may be due to lack of sharing.The fear of getting our disappointment going viral also plays a crucial role.But sharing is important.What happens now a days is that we remain surrounded by so many people,we share smiles, food, gossips but not ourselves.People rarely pay heed to know your real nature but get at least one friend with whom you can share life.Having a good friend by your side (who stand by you, accept you with the worst ) surely brings a big time change.

Its easy to say that stay positive in life but even that comes with a price.You pick yourself up only when you sail through the storm.We tend to learn by our mistakes but positiveness comes with practice.Yes people do carry positive vibes but even that comes after a threshold experience.

So all those people who feel driven by emotions like the way I do, brace yourself up.Pick the chunks to form the full figure.Don`t give up even when the best people in your life leave.Let the memory play footstep to the foundation of beautiful you. :)


(A small dedication to my few good friends who think that I touched their life in a way or two..... )