The Heart says it all...

I am like quite mixed on emotions right now.Depressed yet thoughtful, calm yet cold... is something wrong with me, probably the answer is YES.

Like any other normal person I go through a dozen of  feelings in one single day but at times one feeling over shadow the other.I like being happy but then is it not a choice as I can't put my inner emotions on display.I am actually wondering how people deal with all these inner demons.At times I wonder that one should feel weak too, playing strong hurts at one point of time.

Life differs for everyone..various shades, so many goof ups oops I mean relationships, so many responsibilities, our own ever changing  nature, the cope up mechanisms, high own achievement list n bla bla.Satisfaction is no where.You know what after talking to a number of people, I concluded that each one of us want to run away from life due to any reason or because of any ongoing situation.The mere thought of being into trauma give goose bumps and when we actually land into it - we just want to hide.

The worst part comes in dealing with breakups.It's not like a counselling session but people tend to change for their worst/best at handling these. I am amazed how a person becomes the core of our happiness, the world go gaga with their mere presence, the very thought of losing them bring tears in eyes.Are not we born at different place,cross path with this someone special and then there is this click... not sure how it happens..chemical glitch or whatever but this single person at times torn us into pieces.The self esteem , that boost of confidence - they can take all away.No matter how world accepts you but their rejection makes you feel unworthy of life itself.

We sink into sadistic mode, may be due to lack of sharing.The fear of getting our disappointment going viral also plays a crucial role.But sharing is important.What happens now a days is that we remain surrounded by so many people,we share smiles, food, gossips but not ourselves.People rarely pay heed to know your real nature but get at least one friend with whom you can share life.Having a good friend by your side (who stand by you, accept you with the worst ) surely brings a big time change.

Its easy to say that stay positive in life but even that comes with a price.You pick yourself up only when you sail through the storm.We tend to learn by our mistakes but positiveness comes with practice.Yes people do carry positive vibes but even that comes after a threshold experience.

So all those people who feel driven by emotions like the way I do, brace yourself up.Pick the chunks to form the full figure.Don`t give up even when the best people in your life leave.Let the memory play footstep to the foundation of beautiful you. :)


(A small dedication to my few good friends who think that I touched their life in a way or two..... )

Is it the feeling called LOVE or just another unnamed emotion....

This sounds actually fascinating.We all are normally divided into two categories : "still in love" or  "once upon in love".I don`t know how true this feel is :(
At one time adrenaline rush was too high and world seems to be most perfect place when love birds were together.That hand clutch, those eye stealing moments, that side hug and those steamy conversations.. life seems to be on cloud nine but after a while as they say there will be lull..u know what these all newspapers mention in their article as "low phase" but I am in doubt over this.

If at first go that high phase was so addictive and short than why this empty,dull phase is so long.
You are still with the same person, life is organized - everything in place but then something seems to be missing...

And this is the time when I realize to occupy myself back into my long forbidden hobbies and see here I am writing again on this blog...but somewhere deep inside I am still missing something...
what is that.. do you know?

Well love is still there but the face has changed.Now it`s more about care..no more hormone trouble.
The thing which caught two people together if not lust fire than that will surely last long and once
 this dull phase is over... u feel in love all over again...Most of the relations die in debt of this low feel.Suddenly you start realizing that I am the GIVER in relation and other one is TAKER.
You are not feeling those goosebumps on just that thought of meeting him/her.You start doubting about your commitment level.Loss of confidence on the future of relation.Am I right? You too felt the same.. See I caught you here ;)

LOVE now is transformed into keeping faith in each other for no reason, considering each other`s opinion and spending time together apart from routine work..Just don`t let those flames die so easily.
Start it all over again...try to reconnect through better communication..do some gaming, painting together...it sounds bad but trust me taking part in each other hobbies leads to a thread which is as strong as spider web...

Don`t let the low feel taking a toll on your love... whether you are married or just in non committed relationship.... just take it forward...nothing last forever...

Emotions changes shape, but they never end

It`s like how amazing can life be.I am amazed to feel all the emotions which I go through whole day.

Each day makes me feel more alive.

I don`t know why we all keep on hating all the activities which our grey cells made us to do..

Probably I am a better person now because I have the strength to face my tears when they flow down on my cheeks in front of other person, may be I am able to say that Yes I am angry and yet I know that I am suppose to behave in a certain manner.I am not sorry to feel envy.Its a temporary feel and with time it may vanish.Till the time my emotions are not abiding me to harm someone...I am fine with them..

No curtains pulled...a person should always accept their mind status.Tough times demand us to be positive though being weak is not a stigma.We humans are different from each other and we all try to imitate the best person hidden inside.

Over show of fake emotions is actually a turn off for all the people who are close to you but than no show of emotions too is a complete turn off.. We are born to feel..hunger,love,anger,hatred,jealousy & so on--these all put together makes me and shapes my approach for life.

I preserve the lessons learnt and wish to wash off all the bad memories but than being a female its not easy.No matter how cool I may pretend to be , the history for all bad moments is stored in database with the backup.

I read this line somewhere -"So in the end, I think we can all pretty well agree that even in the face of tragedy, a stellar person can thrive." but is it so??

May be true but than I had my share of tragic events..some of them torn me off inside out and some of them were later proved to be a blessing in disguise...But does that mean  I am not good strong person..I disagree because I am tough nut to crack.I accept my shortcomings..try to work upon them but love my imperfection too.

I take life as the way it comes but than it keeps on giving me some unwanted surprises..

Feeling happy is my state of mind to stay away from bad mood..bad vibes..bad atmosphere...

I gain my strength from the river of emotions...loving all the high tides and low tides..

I hope some of you may agree with this write up and than like the way you come across as a person at different levels holding a true face by not hiding your real emotion.

Facing your real self is the most difficult task.Every one will tell us to improve this and that but do bring in the change when you are ready for it.A person telling you to change may be entirely different in nature.Do take up changes and challenges but than WATCH OUT -  you should hold good what you are in original...your feel..your emotions just holds good for you...